John Schmidt
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« on: May 03, 2017, 11:09:17 AM » |
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Yesterday, 5/2, marked eleven years since my daughter #3 succumbed to cancer. Last month, 4/4, marked five years since my daughter #1 also left us, same cause. I have two left so I haven't lost it all. The following song sung by Guy Penrod and Sarah Darling always tugs at the heart. It causes me to become so emotional I only play it once a year around this time. Have a listen, it has quite a message.  http://www.faithtap.com/3830/a-beautiful-duet-touches-hearts-and-lifts-them-up-to-heaven/ |
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« Reply #1 on: May 03, 2017, 11:27:13 AM » |
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Yesterday, 5/2, marked eleven years since my daughter #3 succumbed to cancer. Last month, 4/4, marked five years since my daughter #1 also left us, same cause. I have two left so I haven't lost it all. The following song sung by Guy Penrod and Sarah Darling always tugs at the heart. It causes me to become so emotional I only play it once a year around this time. Have a listen, it has quite a message. http://www.faithtap.com/3830/a-beautiful-duet-touches-hearts-and-lifts-them-up-to-heaven/ GOD BLISS YOU JOHN........... |
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« Reply #2 on: May 03, 2017, 12:42:27 PM » |
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One of the Secrets of Life, John, is surviving heartaches and holding memories dear in the knowledge that some day.......................
One Word , Emanuel.
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John Schmidt
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« Reply #3 on: May 03, 2017, 01:02:36 PM » |
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One of the Secrets of Life, John, is surviving heartaches and holding memories dear in the knowledge that some day.......................
One Word , Emanuel.
Yes Wayne, those two gals were slowly taken away from me, and now I watch as the same thing is happening to my wife. With her it's not cancer, but the end result is the same. On days when it hits her hard, she can neither talk or walk, unable to eat as well. Last week she weighed 81lbs. in her nightgown and bathrobe, having lost over 25% of her body weight in the last 24 months. But....we can still laugh together, do those risque little things to each other at times that causes a smile and raised eyebrow, stuff that keeps us going day to day. Either that or you'll die with them.  |
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« Reply #4 on: May 03, 2017, 01:06:18 PM » |
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God Bless you John. Great song and thanks for sharing.
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« Reply #5 on: May 03, 2017, 01:31:03 PM » |
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I just can't imagine John. As you know I lost my wife and was a caregiver for her for two years but you've done much more and lost more already.
Sure wish we could sit somewhere over a couple of scotch and sodas and talk.
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« Reply #6 on: May 03, 2017, 01:42:22 PM » |
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Thank you John, I seem to have lost my words...
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« Reply #7 on: May 03, 2017, 02:42:18 PM » |
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Thank you John, I seem to have lost my words...
...me too... DDT |
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« Reply #8 on: May 03, 2017, 03:08:52 PM » |
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John, thanks for this post. That song is very special to me as well. God has been a great influence in my life since I was about 17 yrs. old. I have witnessed a lot of miracles in my lifetime and sincerely prayed for one for my wife, but it was not to be. 12/5/06, I lost my dear wife to cancer after a nine year battle. She was 59 at the time. When I brought her home for the final days of her life, she lay in a bed for about a week in almost a coma state. The last day of her life I was sitting beside her bed holding her hand and telling her how much I loved her. My three kids were in the room and witnessed what I am about to tell you. Until this time she had not opened her eyes nor communicated with us in any way since bringing her home. She opened both eyes looked up, raised both hands, and said "Thank you Jesus." I asked her what was happening and she looked at me with a smile on her face and said, "I feel such a peace," and closed her eyes in death. I cannot explain what that experience meant to me in trying to cope with losing her. I know that peace came from God and as the song says, she knew what Heaven meant for her. May God bless you during this time and I pray for you and your wife. Sincerely, Hef
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John Schmidt
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a/k/a Stuffy. '99 I/S Valk Roadsmith Trike
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« Reply #9 on: May 03, 2017, 07:49:30 PM » |
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Hef, that's a beautiful scene, thanks for sharing. I didn't include the fact that I also buried three mothers in my lifetime. I was adopted at age 2, my adopted mother and I were inseparable, she died of cancer when I was 10. Dad remarried and had a wonderful life with my stepmom, also a great lady. In my 40's I found my biological mother, a sister and brother. My bio-mom died at 71 of heart failure, a couple years later my stepmother died in her mid 70's. My stepmom died of a stroke which she had one evening while I was hugging her. She looked up at me, said "I'm sorry Johnny" and I watched as the side of her face seemed to just slide down and she slumped in my arms. She lasted a few more years but was never the same. As for my girls, I couldn't be there for my first daughter's(#3) death, but my second girls death(#1) I was holding her hand when she breathed her last. About 10 min. prior she had reacted to my whispering "I love you" in her ear, her eyes never opened but she had turned her head in my direction, with a slight smile gave my hand a tiny squeeze....then nothing. Up until that moment she was comatose so was it a conscious act? One day I'll know. |
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John Schmidt
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« Reply #10 on: May 03, 2017, 07:51:11 PM » |
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I just can't imagine John. As you know I lost my wife and was a caregiver for her for two years but you've done much more and lost more already.
Sure wish we could sit somewhere over a couple of scotch and sodas and talk.
Me too Wayne....me too. Who knows, maybe one day. |
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« Reply #11 on: May 03, 2017, 08:28:37 PM » |
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John, thanks so much for sharing your song. I had never heard it before. It's absolutely beautiful.
My heart goes out to you for the loss of your daughters and your wife's illness as you provide her with loving care.
Sometimes it's a test of our faith but that's also what gets us through the same situations.
God Bless you!
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« Reply #12 on: May 03, 2017, 08:30:37 PM » |
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Maybe it's because I'm terminal cancer, but I can't watch this one without falling apart. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BoHK9iUMjkwAnd this one just completely tears me apart....I can't watch this without balling like a little baby. It reminds me of the night at the hospital when I was 16 years old and my father died. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzWkKXuv00UPlease watch both of them and see if they effect you the same way. I have chemo tomorrow. Life F'n sucks. |
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I can't help about the shape I'm in I can't sing, I ain't pretty and my legs are thin But don't ask me what I think of you I might not give the answer that you want me to  |
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« Reply #13 on: May 04, 2017, 06:03:03 AM » |
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Thanks for sharing that John, I lost my oldest daughter in 09 at 30 years old, 6 months after she was married.
To this day they don't know what happened, they found her slumped over her editing console at work and rushed her to the hospital. Our whole family flew out to LA and sat by her bedside for 4 days but she never made it.
The fact that I know where she is and that I will see her there someday makes it bearable but not a day goes by that I don't think of her and smile.
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“I am not a courageous person by nature. I have simply discovered that, at certain key moments in this life, you must find courage in yourself, in order to move forward and live. It is like a muscle and it must be exercised, first a little, and then more and more. A deep breath and a leap.”
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« Reply #14 on: May 05, 2017, 02:41:09 AM » |
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So powerful John. Thanks so much for sharing. I wish you the best.
Find your comfort in surrender.
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DDT (12)
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« Reply #15 on: May 08, 2017, 07:46:42 AM » |
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John,
If there is ‘symmetry’ in this life, then there must also be tremendous joy there for you too! I can’t imagine the loss and pain you must have felt… and continue to bear. I do suspect, though, you realize the implications of my words.
What you’ve experienced, as tragic as it is, has shaped you into the person you’ve become, and the sphere of influence you’ve projected has had a positive impact on the lives of others… mine included. Thank you for being you. May God continue to bless…
DDT
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Don't just dream it... LIVE IT!
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John Schmidt
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a/k/a Stuffy. '99 I/S Valk Roadsmith Trike
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« Reply #16 on: May 08, 2017, 10:42:58 AM » |
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John,
If there is ‘symmetry’ in this life, then there must also be tremendous joy there for you too! I can’t imagine the loss and pain you must have felt… and continue to bear. I do suspect, though, you realize the implications of my words.
What you’ve experienced, as tragic as it is, has shaped you into the person you’ve become, and the sphere of influence you’ve projected has had a positive impact on the lives of others… mine included. Thank you for being you. May God continue to bless…
DDT
Thanks Bruce, and yes....there is joy to be had as well. The girls blessed me with 43 and 54 years of their presence. I'm constantly reminded of some of the pranks pulled by them on their sisters....and their old man.  As for my sweetie, it's the second time around for both of us. In our early years we traveled a lot so we have some fantastic memories and both video & photos of those ventures. Enough to bore anyone to tears when they come visit.  As for my person, I had a great teacher in my dad. He cared for and outlived two wives; one with cancer, the second with a stroke. As I've often said to my wife; "I do get tired physically, I don't get tired caring for you." I can only hope I project something positive to others that I come into contact with, but really....that's true of the lives of anyone, not just me. There are others in our group that have also experienced heart break the same as I, and I'm sure their handling of that time in their lives touched others as well. Take care on the road, be safe and know I wish I could take some time to join you for a few miles. |
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