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I want to extend prayers and this message to all of you that either are battling some form of cancer or a loved one of yours is. I have a new personal understanding of the torments you go through during the diagnosis phase where you hope and pray its not the worst news but you dont know.
My first wife died of an unusual cancer (whole nuther story) so I thought I understood some. For us the diagnosis was sudden and unexpected but not vague in any way and she died weeks after that so there was little question as to what was going on.
However, a month ago when I had my bicycle wreck the dr. found some strange results on x-rays and scans. He said this to me and Ill never forget the gut twisting month of feelings I went through from that moment until today. He said (a month ago) "im not trying to scare you but we are going to spend some time trying to connect all these things. If we do you might have bone cancer"
Gee, Im sure glad you arent trying to scare me!
Well today I found out that there is no connection, and in fact there are logical explainations for each thing that makes them seperate and its not cancer.....in fact my dr. said I could ride again if Im careful at first.
During the last month the possibility of finding out that I may know how short the rest of my days could be is very sobering. Makes one "see" the important things and not care as much about the stuff that really doesnt matter. I came to trust that God was in control and I could accept whatever the answer would be. But I have to say I had my moments and I cannot even imagine how I would be feeling right now if the answer went the other way.
So, those of you that have gone through the waiting...I understand that part.......my prayers go out to you or your loved ones that got the bad news. Never give up, miracles happen, but my hat is off to so many that remain a positive influence on the people around them.......it takes courage no one can fathome, but I caught a glimpse of it this last month
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« Reply #1 on: July 09, 2012, 01:58:43 PM » |
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 Glad all is OK, brother!
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« Reply #2 on: July 09, 2012, 03:58:03 PM » |
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Jeff I'm glad to hear the good report. If there's a disease from hell- cancer is it! I watched both my mom & dad and others die from it and I wouldn't wish the lingering suffering on my worst enemy! So...Ride On Bro, and I mean that literally!  |
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« Reply #3 on: July 09, 2012, 04:12:41 PM » |
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Glad to hear that you are ok Jeff. |
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« Reply #4 on: July 09, 2012, 04:25:13 PM » |
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Jeff'
I am relieved to hear the good report. As a brother in our Lord, I know we will meet him in the not too distant future. I hope we are all still here doing our part when he calls us away suddenly, not laying in a Hospital. I know there are many souls there that need to know the truth, but we can go visit them there, we do not need to be admitted. You are a good man, I hope He has allot more work for you and the queen here among the living.
Romans 8:18
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« Reply #5 on: July 09, 2012, 04:34:03 PM » |
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Glad to hear it brother! Cancer is for sure " Hell on earth". Hope to see everyone in Arkansas. Hay  Jimmyt |
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« Reply #6 on: July 09, 2012, 05:50:45 PM » |
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Understand completely what you went through, glad the news was positive. I believe it will make you stronger should there be another similar situation.
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« Reply #7 on: July 09, 2012, 05:53:25 PM » |
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Glad to hear the news was positive!
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« Reply #8 on: July 09, 2012, 05:58:56 PM » |
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Glad to hear that you are ok. My mom died of cancer and it was no fun sitting there in the hospital room watching her die. Take care and get out and enjoy yourself.
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« Reply #9 on: July 09, 2012, 07:58:32 PM » |
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Glad you do not have to fight that fight Jeff
We will keep all of you in our prayers who need them
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« Reply #10 on: July 09, 2012, 08:09:05 PM » |
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Hey Jeff, glad that the Doc's "connect the dots" came out positive for you. It had to be a gut-wrenching wait for you. Thank God the Doc's original fears were wrong.
BTW, I think of you every time I am on my bicycle going around this one particular corner. Are you healing up from that yet?
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« Reply #11 on: July 09, 2012, 08:19:54 PM » |
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Jeff,
I'm glad to hear it bro. Everything depends on perspective. That month was probably the longest month ever for you while waiting for word. It really does make you think about what's important. I used to think the advice : "Don't sweat the small stuff" was kinda dumb... not any more. Focus on what really matters!!
Make the most of your "adjusted perspective"....
Catch you on the road again soon I hope
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« Reply #13 on: July 09, 2012, 10:12:06 PM » |
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I can relate Jeff. Glad to here you dodged the bullet. The reason I have my Valk today is the fact that I'm still sucking air. It was my present to myself after surviving renel cell carcinoma...... That's kidney cancer for the uninitiated. They told me I had kidney cancer on April the 1st, 2005 (yeah I know.....God's little April fools joke....ha ha). They took my right kidney June the 6th, 2005. They told me I was going to live 7 days later. Had some rough days there for awhile not knowing if I was going sooner rather than later, but 7 years, a thousand doctors visits and seemingly like several hundred CT scans and xrays later......I'm still here sucking air and riding my Valk. This song holds a special significance for me.......
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« Reply #14 on: July 09, 2012, 11:52:10 PM » |
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« Reply #15 on: July 10, 2012, 04:48:33 AM » |
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Thanks everyone and Bruce......thats quite a story! Im glad sure glad you are doing so well now!
I have always believed that philosophy in that song "live like youre dying" I have a very short bucket list. In fact that was one thing I learned and was very grateful for. I thought what would I do if I had 6 months to live? After careful consideration, the answer was I already did it.....Ill just spend the time with those I love, made that moment happier........Another favorite (Im not going to try to find it) but its a female singer and the line I like is:
"If you get the chance.......DANCE" sometimes that chance doesnt come back around
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« Reply #16 on: July 10, 2012, 05:10:06 AM » |
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Very glad that the diagnosis was not cancer Some 25 years ago, I was diagnosed as having advanced liver cancer. They could not do a biopsy to confirm it for a week because I was using aspirin. I had to wait a long week including a discussion on how to treat it. All kinds of thoughts went through my head, those in the same boat, know what I mean. A week later, it was found that I had a large liver hemangioma instead, a benign condition that I was probably born with. Wherw!!! Eleven years ago I was diagnosed as having bladder cancer. It was cancer but it was easily 'peeled off' and no problem to this day, just yearly checkups. Just another reason for naming my Valk "Emanuel" Li'll D has continued the name when she bought my Valk, as I have mentioned. I'm happy for you Chris  wayne |
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« Reply #17 on: July 10, 2012, 05:27:02 AM » |
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Good to hear your ok, I know that C word is a scary one and then waiting to find out the results...I am glad it all turned out ok.
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« Reply #18 on: July 10, 2012, 06:06:32 AM » |
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Thanks everyone and Bruce......thats quite a story! Im glad sure glad you are doing so well now!
I have always believed that philosophy in that song "live like youre dying" I have a very short bucket list. In fact that was one thing I learned and was very grateful for. I thought what would I do if I had 6 months to live? After careful consideration, the answer was I already did it.....Ill just spend the time with those I love, made that moment happier........Another favorite (Im not going to try to find it) but its a female singer and the line I like is:
"If you get the chance.......DANCE" sometimes that chance doesnt come back around
Chris I also know exactly where you're coming from. About 3 years ago the doc found nodules on my lungs and for 2 years I was getting CT scans every quarter to see if they were growing. Thank God they are still 5 mil and not. Those 2 years felt like an eternity of not knowing and is still in the back of my mind. This really opened my eyes and changed my perspective on life. I already knew this but I think this may have been allowed to wake me up. Life is more than work, work, work and trying to accumulate stuff! For what? To ruin your health and spend what money you worked so hard for to pay doctor bills to regain your health. It just doesn't make sense! I picure it kinda like a hamster running on the wheel! To this day I have yet to see a hearse pulling a uhaul!!  So I try to focus on what is close to my heart which is my God, family and friends. Remember, life is like a vapor and we're only here for a short time so we need to make every day count! This song just came to my mind.
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« Reply #19 on: July 10, 2012, 06:11:05 AM » |
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Very glad that the diagnosis was not cancer Some 25 years ago, I was diagnosed as having advanced liver cancer. They could not do a biopsy to confirm it for a week because I was using aspirin. I had to wait a long week including a discussion on how to treat it. All kinds of thoughts went through my head, those in the same boat, know what I mean. A week later, it was found that I had a large liver hemangioma instead, a benign condition that I was probably born with. Wherw!!! Eleven years ago I was diagnosed as having bladder cancer. It was cancer but it was easily 'peeled off' and no problem to this day, just yearly checkups. Just another reason for naming my Valk "Emanuel" Li'll D has continued the name when she bought my Valk, as I have mentioned. I'm happy for you Chris wayne Wayne I love that name Emanuel "God with us" because He sure is! |
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« Reply #20 on: July 10, 2012, 07:06:05 AM » |
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Great news Chris. I too lost a precious wife of 37 years to the dreaded disease and you're right, if anything will change your outlook on what is important in life, it is dealing with cancer. When you watch the life being sucked out of your loved one and there is absolutely nothing you can do, you are changed forever. God Bless.
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« Reply #21 on: July 10, 2012, 07:20:57 AM » |
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Great news Chris. I too lost a precious wife of 37 years to the dreaded disease and you're right, if anything will change your outlook on what is important in life, it is dealing with cancer. When you watch the life being sucked out of your loved one and there is absolutely nothing you can do, you are changed forever. God Bless.
Hef, yes you described what I witnessed when my first wife went through that. Its the most unmerciful thing anyone can imagine to witness. For my first wife the only saving grace for her was since we believe in living wills, when it came to the point where it would have been very painful (last 2 weeks or so) she was on so much morphene she didnt know what planet she was on, she could still talk but was like a 5 year old. The Dr asked if I wanted them to reduce the morphene so I could say goodbye, I said no I didnt want her to feel it again |
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« Reply #22 on: July 10, 2012, 08:06:05 AM » |
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Just had biopsy done,,, anxiously waiting for the results................
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« Reply #23 on: July 10, 2012, 08:21:42 AM » |
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Great news Chris. I too lost a precious wife of 37 years to the dreaded disease and you're right, if anything will change your outlook on what is important in life, it is dealing with cancer. When you watch the life being sucked out of your loved one and there is absolutely nothing you can do, you are changed forever. God Bless.
Hef, yes you described what I witnessed when my first wife went through that. Its the most unmerciful thing anyone can imagine to witness. For my first wife the only saving grace for her was since we believe in living wills, when it came to the point where it would have been very painful (last 2 weeks or so) she was on so much morphene she didnt know what planet she was on, she could still talk but was like a 5 year old. The Dr asked if I wanted them to reduce the morphene so I could say goodbye, I said no I didnt want her to feel it again God bless you and Hef, I can only imagine. It was so hard to watch my mom die when on so much morphene, I could still hear her moaning in the hospital room with the door closed and I was all the way down the hallway. I felt so helpless and pray I never have to witness my wife or anyone go through that.  |
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« Reply #24 on: July 10, 2012, 08:22:44 AM » |
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Just had biopsy done,,, anxiously waiting for the results................
Praying it's good Bro! |
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« Reply #25 on: July 10, 2012, 08:26:44 AM » |
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Just had biopsy done,,, anxiously waiting for the results................
Praying it's good Bro! Get the results 3 days before mounting up to head out to Eureka Springs for Inzane. |
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« Reply #26 on: July 10, 2012, 11:57:48 AM » |
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Just had biopsy done,,, anxiously waiting for the results................
Praying it's good Bro! Get the results 3 days before mounting up to head out to Eureka Springs for Inzane. Prayers for a good report!! |
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« Reply #27 on: July 10, 2012, 01:58:42 PM » |
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I know how you feel,had small tumor removed some
months back. It was behind my left ear. The doctor
came in with the strange look on his face. I had been having
head ache like you can,t believe. He said just about the same thing to me.
Luckily it was not what he was thinking.
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